If so I think I am there. It started with a good nights rest, a 3 year old sweetie pie counting to 10 in Spanish singing form on the way to daycare this morning. I almost had to pull over. I had a tear and was in utter shock to be honest. He said "sing wit me mom"....:) (Warm heart!) Then he sang his ABC's and he didn't stutter on "L" like he did just last week. Amazing how fast they grow!!! (tear)
He is so cute on Wednesdays when we head to my Sissy's. I say we are going to see Jojo and Sissy and Ashley and he says "No Mom, we go see Ian" and I then say Oh yes Ian, the man you see for like 15 minutes, before he goes to work. Sorry Ash but IAN is a big deal!! Most likely because he is a boy! :)
My Dr. yesterday increased my meds dosage. I had been on 30mg of Vyvanse and I felt I had plateaued. (yes I do feel the need to tell you this) So he increased to 50mg and let me tell you now, I am so happy(noy crazy like either). I am all warm and fuzzy inside and very focused. Focused on love and laughter only.
I think I must have fallen out of my funk last night. I think a certain 30 second phone call changed my world. One, because I have impressed in my brain that I cannot take care of anyone but myself before I attempt others. Two, I CAN let go of issues in my past it's OK. I don't need them as an excuse anymore!! Final, I am SUPER LUCKY to have Russ. I cant explain him and what he means to me in just one word. Sorry that IS impossible!
So I say to you: You, that is having a bad day, You, who is wearing a frown because life is hard right now. I tell You, there is light at the beginning, not the end of the tunnel, OPEN your damn eyes! You are loved! You are needed!
Or as my wise mother would say "Fake it, til you make it" OR "Are you willing to sink or are you going to swim?"
I am swimming Mom....
BIG HUGS TO ALL THOSE WHO NEEDS ONE OR JUST BECAUSE!
thank you
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