Bath Time Way Better This Time

Seriously! Obviously you can tell I am cracking up. It started with Dalton in the bath and Daddy came in to join the fun..or create the fun. By switching the light off Bubba screams and then when Russ flips it back on he screams and cracks up. Not scared one bit!! Mind you Austin is running out of the bathroom as I would have as a kid but Bubba is a different breed for sure! He will be our rollercoaster/haunted house goer....Gotta love it!

Baby Lacey's Baptism with Aunt TT

I just love this pictures of me and Lacey. She is one of the girls that I get to act as if she is my own daughter. Aren't we too cute and pretty

Look At Theses Crazy Ladies

Seriously, arent these hilarious!? These are "MY" girls..My little and not so little nieces. They give me my girl fix for sure. Hope you enjoy as I do.

LAUGHING!!!!

Really it's all I can do...LAUGH! I seriously got a flat tire on the way to work this morning and had to call Julisa to come rescue me.
Russ is so overwhelmed at this point he is gonna freak out! I only help my day gets much better!

Goodness

Update: As soon as I finished posting this an old patient from the Rosana Square practice delivers this Edible fruit bouquet. He says it goes to a Tracy and I must have looked like I had seen a ghost, because he says "that's you?!" It is me and then I was like "from who!!!?" he states Ash and Christa......

Thank you Girls..love you


I honestly just gave myself a speech over lunch
" Get up Tracy, you have a ton of friends and family that love you so quit being the lump on a log or a bump in the road. Life sucks but move on it only has to get better right?!"

God is Good!

So as bad as a day I am having.....no Starbucks this morning mind you. Val my oh so prego hygienist just whips out this 25.00 Starbucks gift card that she has just been carrying around in her wallet. I wanted to cry, I told her I would blog. Its the little things in life.....so I cant wait to hurry and leave work just to get me some fresh yumminess. Thank you Val. Thank you!

What Happens?

What happens when you are broke and cant pay your taxes that you now for the first time ever...owe?
What happens when the bank closes your accounts due to NSF charges or inactivity?
What happens when you try to move forward and every step you take something pushes you back?
What happens when your little one is sick and NOBODY can figure it out?
What happens when just when you think you have it all figured out, you fail AGAIN?
What happens when people are sad around you and you need their happiness for just one day?

I will tell you....what happens...

You Love the one you lay beside at night more
You hold your child and kiss them 2 more times than normal.
You throw your checkbook and debit cards away and start cashing checks at Walmart
You smile in the presence of others and cry at night when saying your prayers.
You know in your heart and mind others have it worse.
You know that LIFE is a roller coaster and this is the scary part.
You know that it will get better.
You thank the lord you have a job, a house, cars and food for your family.
You LIVE,LAUGH, and LOVE always

Rheumatology Day

Today we go see Dr. Lasky at CMH downtown. I will keep you all posted through the blogger and email. I have printed a ton of pictures of his different flare ups to show the doc. Hopefully, we find out more than we know. Have a great day everyone. Say your prayers. We know they work....dont believe me check HERE. We also need to pray for my co-workers sanity! She is prego and LORD help us all she needs her meds for her morning sickness

Church, God, Cathloic

What is religion? Its what you decide to believe right? I know where I am going. I mean who wouldnt want a beautiful angel like me? LOL!
No really this topic and the thought of going back to church has really came up a lot lately. When I was going through a life changing time after my ex-boyfriend did what he did to me. I only played the cd "Songs of Worship" and "Cher" and to fall asleep at night I would say the "Our Father" over and over again and somehow find myself asleep faster than ever. Hard times, good times. I need that higher power.....everyone uses him at some point right? Harpers family is seeing what he truley des in crisis. So I am considering going back....

Bubba Bath Movie

Okay so I have to admit, its too cute. You will notice his concentration in the beginning. I thought he was gonna poop in the tub, but he didn't. Then he burped while saying "brother" the first time. Then the whacker part! He just cracks me up!!! You will also notice Austin in the background doing and saying the "inappropriate" things. He said he wanted to do a "comedy skit" he wasn't quite aware that I was trying to make a good video!!! You have to know Austin!

Random Pictures From The Weekend

Smile...see my teeth. I told him to show Valerie his nice clean teeth, we scrubbed with a toothbrush today....please if you are a parent of any sort to a child under the age 10 please read HERE

Lacey's baptism Sunday at Holy Trinity.......

Jennifer and Owen, Gama and Bubba

Grandpa and Bubba time is always great and very much needed! Just look at how genuine Pampa looks at Bubba. My dad has such kind eyes! I just love them!!

It's A Horrible World...

We did our taxes tonight and found that we OWE and get nothing in return from either party! I have never owed in my entire working career to the government. I'm sick to my stomach and have to hold back my tears because I want to scream and cry like a baby! Life is not fair don't ever believe that it is.
Oh well lesson learned right!? I claimed way too many on my paychecks and Russ claimed to little for what he made! You would never know this would screw you until you have already been screwed! Ugh! I am angry because we just sat down and did bill budgeting as a team, my husband and I and we have an allowance, an allowance like we are 12 but its because we don't know how to save and then just when we think or I think "oh what a nice bonus taxes will put in our account", NOOOOO they sucked it dry! In tears!!!!!!!
UGH!

Is The Day Over Yet?

I tell ya what this whole conserving money thing is sure boring. I have to admit we are doing well, but it angered me to have the passion to spend 15 of my dollars on the 4th Twilight book, actually I am ill over it but I couldn't resist. Can you take books back after you read them?? LOL I wouldn't do that! This day is going soooo slow. I haven't had my coffee fix and I think that's why my fuse is short! All I wanted to do an hour ago was sleep and now that everyone is quiet I am wide awake, go figure! My parents came in town today for Lacy's baptism tomm. and to look at some houses etc. OK well until next time.

Did I Breathe Today?

Where the heck did my Friday go? I lounged in bed until 630am then got bubby up and dressed him and headed to take him to Mrs. Gabby's house. Then as usual headed to Starbucks then to my sisters, then with not much of a visit I headed home to rotate laundry, shower, pick up the house a little, in time for Russ to come home, him shower and then we headed to his BIG APPOINTMENT!
It took longer than I expected and I who loves blood and guts and surgery, kind of got queasy. I had to look away at times and sort of well....breathe!! I really tossed it up to I could have watched anyone else going through this procedure but it weirded me out to have it be Russ. I could see his toes curling at certain points and wanted to ask a hundred times if he was alright.
I'm a freak, I know this, but he is my big teddy bear and well e was just laying there helpless.
So with that being done we headed home. Russ quickly found his spot in bed and I read the 4th book to Twilight. Not even halfway into it. I had to leave to get the boys. Russ didn't get out of bed until 5 and that's because I made him. He is doing really well actually. He refused the pain meds so we will see. They said tomm. would be a little worse! He is handling this better than a cold and I am on pins and needles!
Not to mention that bubba was a disaster when I brought him home, my lord he is at that stage where he tries every avenue!!! Then tries again..
So I continue to say my prayers for sanity.
I read some more tonight made ham and bean soup with cornbread(its becoming a staple in my house) then decided I should journal. Okay well hello everyone. Take care have a splendid weekend.

In The End!

There was pure and total enjoyment!!!! Is it OK to be excited that your husband is going to have a vasectomy? I mean maybe this is a little personal but I am overjoyed. We have never used the best precaution measures and because of that we have our great two year old.(Not that I regret anything) I must admit though I love having a full time child(Bubba) and a part time child (Austin). It sure makes life grand, and I enjoy all the time I have with them both as they enjoy each other. Yet I am very aware that I could not do two full time kiddos with great stride! Nope I would be checking in somewhere for sure. I feel complete!!! I have 8 nieces. Russ would have had it any way, more kids or no more kids. It was a final decision for me!! We have thought and talked about this for a long time. So its set Russ will be bringing things to a close I shall say on Friday at 11am. Then I will have three kids this weekend...LOL! (that would be RUSS post surgery, Austin and Bubba) Dear Lord pray for me and my sanity!

So It's Hump Day

Its a good day, I am well rested for as well rested as I can be...I am almost done with Eclipse the 3rd Twilight book and if I have any advice its this, don't do this to yourself, don't read these books. I think it tortures my dreams, last night I flew on the back of my friend through the woods, weird I know.
Stupid Book!!! I scream that constantly. This morning I was actually sitting in my work parking lot reading because it seems to be the only ounce of solitude that I get and you must focus when reading these.
STUPID BOOK!

I wrote a comment to Harpers parents and am praying for their little (or not so little) baby girl...God is good.

Have a good Wednesday y'all

Still Nothing

THE DRS CALLED ME BACK TODAY AND STATED THAT DALTONS TESTS DONT REALLY POINT TO ANYTHING.

NERVES, UNHAPPINESS, NO ANSWER

I HATE THIS......

SO WE HAVE A HIGH PLATELET COUNT AND NOTHING TO EXPLAIN IT. WHATEVER!

SO TO THE RHEUMATOLOGIST WE GO ON THE 27TH

For my Memory

"Tracy,I am so sorry. You were definitely one of my faves. I actually went and visited your website and read all about you. I am glad that things are going well for you and I am proud of you have become. Keep in touch and take care of yourself.Mr. J"

Above is the comment that my most favorite, memorable teacher left on my Facebook page! This is my journal you know and I want to remember what he said because it was an "awe" moment for me

The Agony in Waiting

I am supposed to be finding out the other test results today and no later than today, and I have been having horrible nightmares that I cant account for. I hate worry, I get ulcers and the nervous poops (TMI) just thinking of all of it. Come on already....

Today is the consult for my hubby's snip n clip and in honesty that makes me ill too. No, I don't want more children but it is such a miracle to reproduce and a true gift, but we are done and this makes that permanent. Kind of scary!

I love my full time and part time child though and wouldn't change that for the world! I cant wait until sports start up. I'm actually enrolling Bubba into tumbling for tots in a month or so, we have got to get his coordination under control....LOL! He is a lot like me...dear Lord!

OK well I will update if I find out anything at all

Ten Realisms

Click HERE to follow why I did this

Believe it or not I have 10 plus realism's but we will stick with ten

1. I'm a BIG girl, I have hips, booty and boobs. I think I was born the wrong color for my body type.

2. I am "fixing" my husband so we will not be having anymore little ones. But he doesn't know that I made the appt. already!

3. I must have lived to be 100 in my previous life because I love, Jazz, good wine, laughter and people say I have an old soul!

4. My left boob is bigger than my right and they hang like the National Geographic pictures, so yesterday my husband said for my 30th Bday I can have new boobs!! Yeah!

5. Talking about scars in Vals blog, a boy named Stevie Hewlett called me "thunder thighs" and that words haunts me in my sleep.

6. I can move like a mechanical doll, I even took classes for it

7. Ask my brother in-law about "trumpet" another thing that scarred me for life

8. Never play truth or dare Jenga with me

9. Truth is the odds of having TWO great babies, funny, smart, cute are very slim hence the snip n clip appt.

10. I'm just me, I wear my heart on my sleeve, and can cry at the drop of a hat, I always need an answer to everything. I love much and laugh often and hold good friends near.

Sticker Head Dancing

Weekend Randoms

Randoms with Daddy..Dalton's new favorite thing to do thanks to Ashlyn Bard is piggy back riding. He loves it! We spent most of our time with the Bards family this weekend, My husband fell in love with Amberly's spaghetti so we had it twice, with salad and bread! Played the Wii of course and the kids wore each other to the max as usual. Bubba was getting tired and so Amberly rocked him in the rocker like she did when he was just a baby. I think she is the only one who ever rocked bubba. We laugh because her method was shake em and beat em...meaning she would bounce him and pat his butt and he would be out like a light. What did I do without Amberly the first year of bubba's life???

Dalton decided to take his sticker from the hospital tear it in half and stick it on his head. We turned around in the truck this is what we saw...I have video as well, I just don't know how to put it on here. Really it was a great weekend, and it's Sunday and Russ and I havent fought....WOW! he is actually doing laundry and cleaning out dresser drawers...GOD BLESS HIM....Oh and PS: My BFF Candie bought me Eclipse, the 3rd book to the Twilight series...GOD BLESS HER!!!!!!

Update

ROUND TWO OF BLOOD WORK:

Again bubba did great at Children's Mercy this morning while they drew more blood.

We knew this was going to be a long road to an answer but man, I am in a hurry

Update from the Dr Harrison at infectious disease:

I am NOT crazy!
Dalton does have an elevated platelet count once again, news we already knew. Meaning he had some sort of infection in the body within the last week-3months besides the common cold.
His other blood work was just to find out what his infector levels and normal blood looks like and then they sent orders to children's mercy south to have ready for when he runs the fever and has hives again we take him in and do what they call "bad blood draws"

We are still waiting on the SPECIFIC blood tests for certain kinds of disease or auto-immune but we wont know anything until mon or tuesday!

Then we still see Dr Lasky the Rheumatologist on Jan 27th. Which leads to a whole other door of options.

Patience is virtue right? I keep telling myself that!

Meanwhile I have a very happy, energetic, baby boy!

Twilight Movie Night

"Am I breathing? Nope haven't in awhile, I should probably be doing that, but its hard too....catch your breath.....innnnhaaale, exhhaaaalle"

That above was me talking to myself throughout the WHOLE movie, yes...I turned to Candie at one point and mentioned I needed to do a long inhale because I kept forgetting to breathe. I know it sounds crazy but maybe only for those of you who aren't or haven't experienced it...

Was the movie all that I thought it would be? No!
Would I go see it a ton of times? No!
Will I own it one day. For sure!

What it did do was make it even more real and that makes my stomach sick....

I have never been so involved in a book or a movie as I have this series. Don't get me wrong I love some good Denny Duket in Grey's Anatomy and some Dalton in Roadhouse. This is different this sucks you in...no pun intended there :)

Sorry!!!! its just something you can't control......once you start reading your world kind of revolves around it, try and find somebody who has read these books and says one negative thing.
That Stephanie Meyers is a bad person and I love it!
I'm off to buy and read book 3 tomm. I will keep you all posted.
now once my adrenaline stops I shall sleep, until then I should maybe kiss my husband hello!
Goodnight

Clear My Mind

I have to admit that I have been undertaken by the Twilight series and am holding off on book 3 for just a minute because these 500 page books are keeping me from the real world. So lets update on everything else happening.



Bubba stopped running his fever on Sunday which means he ran one for ten days straight this time. All the blood tests that we did last Tuesday were junked due to steroids still being in his system. So we go this Friday to have the labs drawn again. Otherwise its just hurry up and wait!



We all have had our bout of colds this year, bubba more than anyone but we are moving forward still.



My mom came in town this past weekend and brought me the best surprise....okay backing up, Russ and I got married while I was 3 months pregnant, not that the marriage wasn't planned but the baby wasn't to be here that early I guess....wink, wink! So the only wedding picture we had was us in front of the courthouse and well that just killed my mom....being as my sisters was a huge shebang...

So she took the photo to a picture edit person and made me a wedding picture I will have to post a picture soon. Then she took us to breakfast and coffee then to buy frames for my photo collage wall I am doing in my living room, again I will have to post a picture.



Really nothing else new other than life, everyday is a new day and I seem to like everyone of them.



Ooohhh PS : I almost forgot....my hubby has been cooking dinner every night during the week, he loves doing it and I love eating it, the meals are so healthy and yummy! God bless him......

For my friend Candie

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z0Bbw3G_bxk&feature=related

Just writing...

Its finally Thursday which is my Friday. I have held off on returning to the gym and am going to start the "Daniel Fast" on Monday. Its a very neat fast to be honest and a great detoxing for the body, which I need after the holidays!
I am reading....yes, reading the best book ever Twilight, I cant put it down. I was up til 930ish last night and am half way through. Its amazing and I will continue to read the series and have heard great things about the authors next book called "The Host"
Bubba had his blood draws yesterday so now we just hurry up and.....wait for an answer if there even is one.
I went out last night for a margarita with my sister and Stephanie at Chili's its was super fun, good hard laughs as always.
Have I mentioned I love all the new trends out right now, I would have never thought to paint my nails black 5 years ago and now as of today they are. I love it! Clothes, jewelry, shoes/boots etc. I keep thinking what can I do funky next?
Well have a great day everyone.
Love all!
Well I hope everyone has a great day.

My Relaxing Tuesday Night

This is what I came home too. Russ had made dinner. It was one of the best meals yet, I'm not hard to please let me tell ya. He made chicken breast on the George Foreman with a "secret" sauce, some steamed edamame and cottage cheese. Delish!!! Then Bubba and I took a bath in the big bath tub because Julisa and I found a plug at walmart that made the water stay in....back to relaxing bath time...you all have no idea how much I have missed baths. (I have been cleansing people, just in a shower not a bath tub) The bath tub has my heart and one day I will have that "jacuzzi" tub! On to better, as the night goes on I am patiently and I mean really patiently waiting to dive into my new hobby, reading the twilight saga.....oh its better than I could have imagined, I'm NOT A READER but this has grabbed me like many said it would and I'm not letting go. I read 50 pages in no time, that should shock most people. I have kind of started a book club as well. Ohhh more drama in my love, cant breathe without it right?!

OK goodnight y'all

Daltons Napping Apparel

This is EXACTLY what my two year old looked like when I went to pick him up out of his crib after a 3 hour nap on Sunday....was he really sleeping 3 hours???? I think not!! Daddy and I were cracking up! By the way he wouldnt let me fix it for awhile either hence the fact he is eating apples.....

I've Got It

Take a Trip!
Russ and I never got a honeymoon, we have never taken a vacation besides Texas to see the in-laws, or random states and cities for softball.
We are going to Maine!! Seriously, its a dream vacation for Russ and I both. Its a gift to us. Maybe a little more selfish than I thought my resolution would be, but exciting. We always talk about it and now I am just going to set it. Start saving money!
That's it WE are TAKING A TRIP!

Whats in a New Years Resolution?

I have been really putting thought into this one, what is a resolution? How can I make mine not only personal but effect others as well? I love the giving something aspect as much as I like the giving up of something aspect. I researched of course and found some ideas!

Get Organized~~I try this almost everyday
Help Others~~
Learn Something New~~
Get Out of Debt~~Trying, I filed Bankruptcy I mean how much more can you get out?
Enjoy Life More~~Need to try harder
Fit in Fitness~~Back on the wagon
Spend More Time With Family and Friends~~This is a must

Ugh...so many things I should do and want to do and still I am stumped. Something unique, something different.

A 2009 Fun Filled Week-Weekend

This is who I started my 2009 year off with....the love of my life! My BFF! Russell, When we make it through this year it will be 3 years married and 6 total of being together. Cant say I regret any of it! We spent these past couple days with friends and loved ones. Here are some really random shots! I REALLY need a better camera. Im addicted and my camera is a POS.

Baby Coltyn cracking up.. Bubba sitting on Coltyns Golf Bag and not supposed to be doing so...

Russ's new tool kit! He was so proud as I was so proud of him!

Our NEW Keyless entry, if you have never seen this its amazing!!!! Home Depot for 69.00 Its awesome!

Yes, its Ken the Barbie doll.....he loves it! BTW he is saying "See"

Color time with cousin Cami! She got to come over and play all day Friday! Bubba loves girls!

At some point we had dinner at Old Shawnee Pizza with the Dearings. Bubba loves Bird.

Mommy giving tons of kisses, he hates it and I DONT CARE!

Playing fort with a blanket over the coffee table!

Playing Monster with the same blanket. Universal toy.....

My Pointelin Nieces

Little Angel Little Angel in DISGUISE!

Aunt TT and Jojo

Aunt TT and Baby Sissy

A Letter a Dear Friend Sent Me

This letter I received by email as an E-Card. I love Ally with all my heart and cant believe we are so close not in ways that we talk everyday or even see each other once a year but I know If either of us had a problem or a happy experience we would both know where to go or who to call. I have a few GREAT friends like this and I am so blessed to have them in my life. When you know you have that connection with someone, you better hold on for dear life and KNOW that they don't come in your life for no reason.


Trace-Happy New Year!! Well, almost! :)I just wanted you to know that I had such a great time catching up with you. As you always have been, you are such a delight to be around! I am so thankful to have you in my life!Also, I am praying for little Bubba! Also for you during this difficult and frustrating time trying to figure out what the heck is wrong with him. Take care and I love you and miss you already!

Back on the Wagon...

There is no reason my butt should not be in the gym come Monday! The hectic Holidays are over, the eating is done! I have managed to maintain and lose a little more on my own between turkey day and now, but I need my motivation back. Between Dalton being sick, bubbas birthday, Turkey day, Xmas, ENOUGH ALREADY! Back to me. No more excuses! All though we still have a long road of head of us with things that pop up all the time, I need to be back at the gym at least 3 days a week. Its too good for me, just like family, friends, work and house chores I need this in my life! So the journey continues!

Russ and I on New Years Eve 2008-2009

We decided last minute of course how about dinner and a movie at the Legends?! Ashley and Ian kept Dalton while we splurged a little. We ate at the Saddle Ranch which was excellent yet way to large of portions. Then we headed to the Legends 14 theatre to see Seven Pounds with Will Smith. Its an awesome movie definitely one I will end up buying. Loved it and believe it or not Russ did to. Then we headed to get Dalton and to bed we went by 11pm. Happy New Years to all of our friends and family. We have enjoyed the last year and hope to see even a better one in 2009.

Ashley's Golden Year

My sissy turned 29 years old on Dec. 29th. Thats classified as her golden year! So we celebrated it a little before xmas and then I took her out to Chilis for apps and a margarita...a Presidente Margarita to be exact. They were yummy and she was a cheap date. Our get togethers always include tons of stupid laughter, we always look way intoxicated and we totally arent. Next year its 30 and I can only imagine what that will bring. Love you Sissy

PS: so we totally forgot to take pictures on our night out for my blogging so when we got home we came inside and snapped a few. Great huh?