She said, "I love you to the moon." He said, "I love you to the sun, because it's hotter." (she laughed) Together, they are living happily ever after.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
For The Love..
Jordyn Brooke Turns FOUR
Today Jordyn Brooke turns 4. Dalton wanted to get her something extra special even though we celebrated her birthday on Saturday. so I suggested flowers but noooooo, he got her strawberry shampoo, a princess sticker book and some hair ties. He also insisted on getting Ashley a hair clip and little ties for Sissy's hair too :) He is gonna spoil the ladies and hopefully not with Mommy's money :)
To my Jojo, from the moment you were born I loved you. Wow how time flies when your having fun. You and Bubba are the best of friends. However, you have got to quit dressing him up in your princess dresses and letting him play with your barbies and barbie house. We need him to be rough and tough sister! So he can beat up boys when they break your heart later on in life.Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Monday, June 28, 2010
Thank You Lord and All Others involved!
(update and letter to Dalton regarding his dr's appt. today)
Dalton---Mommy is so relieved to have an answer. I have waited THREE AND A HALF years to walk out of that Dr's office with an answer to the very well known "mystery boy"
Dr. Dobratz is amazing. He literally does research right in front of Daddy and I. I know you were so not a fan of the blood work and that simply tears me apart inside. Now that you are older you remember the pain and the specifics, like the room and the grey chair and the man with blue and white clothes :(. It breaks my heart to tell you that we are nowhere finished doing that either. We have to go back next week for more blood work and then the week after that we see the Hematologist and honey, he is a speciality blood Dr. Mommy and Daddy are gonna have to start thinking of some really good bribes :) Stickers and suckers aint cutting it!
After 3 long hard years Bubby you have a disorder called "Cyclic Neutropenia" What is that you ask? Its a rare blood disorder that causes your white blood count to drop to low when it assumes infection in the body and this happens approx. every 21days. (Hence the word cycle) Also "nuephritals" are these specific white blood cells and anything under 2000 is dangerous. Today, my tough little buddy your count was ONLY 624! Mommy was scared but I didn't show it to you. I plan to grab this bucking bull by the horns and hang the hell on. We have an answer Bubby!!! Mommy isn't crazy :) Well not technically.
What causes it?
The causes of Neutropenia can fall into three categories:
1.Decreased production in the bone marrow resulting from a hereditary disorder, cancer, medications, radiation, or Vitamin B12.
2.Increased destruction from aplastic anemia, autoimmune neutropenia, and chemotherapy.
3.Marginalisation and sequestration caused by hemodialysis.
The causes are from the side effect of certain medications, such as diuretics or antibiotics, leukemia, viral infections, such as mononucleosis or AIDS, bacterial infections such as tuberculosis, and certain autoimmune disorders, such as lupus or rheumatoid arthritis.
Whats the treatment?
Well, there really isn't any, once you have found this disease they attempt to link it elsewhere and you gain treatment according to that diagnosis.
So I should be getting a call from Children's Mercy Specialty Center soon. The Dr's have already been in touch.
FYI...for all of my fellow readers. It has been exactly 23 days since his last 104 fever that lasted 4 days. Whew!!....what an answer!
Any prayers would be great but I am certain all will be fine! :)
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Single Parent? No Thank You!
I then learned early on into my dreadful week, that it might not be so dreadful, my sis-in-love would be coming up to stay with me because my niece, Stacia, also had a ball tourney. So I could relax in the "having to sleep in my house alone" department. However, Stacia's tourney might as well been a 48hr cause I only saw them mainly at night.
They rolled in about 9 on Friday night and we stayed up gabbing until midnight. We were all awake at 6am including Dalton, because my niece had early games and well Dalton had gone to bed earlier Friday night and was FULLY rested.
By 9:3am Dalton and I had been to Walmart and were now in our swimsuits playing in the plastic pool and I of course had to show him how to use the Slip-N-Slide. Let's just admit that there should be a WARNING NOT FOR ADULTS label on the box because WOW, I feel sore in places I didn't know existed. It hurts to laugh or turn a certain way.
Dalton and I were both napping by 1pm and then dressed and out the door by 315pm to attend Jojo's 4th Bday party which was at the park with a scorching 107 degree heat index. Ahhhhh cake and ice cream! What a treat in that heat!! In return that treat was toxic to me and made me horribly ill....DUH; the new meds I am on PLUS cake equals a HUGE NO-NO! No stopping there, Des was hosting a BBQ out in Bonner at her apartment and since I missed the last one, I had to show my face. Backing up, Did I mention it was HOT? IT WAS HOT Well we got to Des's and my son did a 360! He wanted to lay on her couch! What?! Not play with the other kids? Be inside? Not my child. My motherly instinct knew something was wrong but mainly assumed he was just plain exhausted from the day/heat etc. So we headed home.
About 7pm he states he wants to go to his bed...I immediately whipped out the thermometer! 102 temp...."#@&!" was all I could say. Why? Because we just did this whole high fever out of nowhere for 4 days crap not even a month ago. We were healthy for a year...a year! So I dosed him up and off to bed he went. I text Russ and just sobbed, I wanted my hubby! He of course, at that point wished he had driven himself cause he would have turned around and headed back for us. But that wasn't the case and I just needed to suck it up and be a big Mommy :)
Until... 3am when Dalton woke with a 102 and ......(wait for it)....HIVES! Are you freaking kidding me? Is this a joke? Hives? We haven't seen those in a year and a half. Granted they weren't geographic in size but he was aware they were there and that they itched so we both weren't happy. I dosed him with Motrin and Benedryl and asleep he went...Until... 6am when he woke with 103 temp mind you NOT ready for meds. So here we are again rotating meds for break through fevers! (THIS IS EXHAUSTING TO TYPE)
Sis, myself, Dalton, Stacia and RayRay(Stacia's great friend she brought with her) all slept or lazed around until Noon...Yes Noon!(backing up did I mention that I shared my king size bed with Stacia and Rayray? It was like a teenage slumber party all over again) I hadn't even been to Starbucks and Dalton was for sure not my normal running, entertaining child by any means!
Sister and I had the best laughs this afternoon. We were trying to figure out some word that Stacia and Rayray had concocted so parents couldn't understand what they were talking about. Well, Sis and I couldn't stand it and were trying to figure it out. We were in tears and wheezing we were laughing so hard at them and ourselves! It was by far a point that broke my stress/tension/anxiety level with all of the Dalton issues. On top of everything we found he also has early stages of juvenile diabetes Friday afternoon. (of course again after Russ had already left town) we go back Wed for more blood work and better detailed answers. Now can you imagine my single parent anxiety attack I was having this weekend? :)
Things I need to know sooner rather than later regarding this weekend:
What in the hell is wrong with my baby boy?
What does JACOBER or TRAJACBERT or $%^&*#@@! mean? (that's the word Stacia and Rayray made up)
Where can two teenage white girls get corn rows done for a decent price?
Last one: WHY do they all live 2 hrs away again? I had a blast and am looking forward to some major GIRL time in a few weeks. I totally played my Rap music for Stacia. She thinks Little Wayne is good rap....Hello...Master P, Too Short, Bone, Thugs and Harmony????? that is rap my little country bumpkin! :)
OK well pictures to come soon but for now I say Goodnight. On great news of things, my hubby WON the tournament and is now 5 hours from home. He cant get here fast enough.
Any prayers for answers I would greatly appreciate!
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Thank You Dr. Greene
So here it is.
Diagnosis #1 is PCOS Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome: I copied this from a website I understand it quite well but am exhausted trying to explain it so here you go.
Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) symptoms tend to start gradually. Often, hormone changes that lead to PCOS.
With PCOS, you may have only a few symptoms or many symptoms. It is common for PCOS symptoms to be mistaken for other medical problems.
Symptoms: Few or no menstrual periods . This can range from less than nine menstrual cycles in a year (more than 35 days between cycles) to no menstrual periods.3 Some women with PCOS have regular periods but are not ovulating every month. This means that their ovaries are not releasing an egg each month.
Hair loss from the scalp and hair growth (hirsutism) on the face, chest, back, stomach, thumbs, or toes. About 70% of women in the United States with PCOS complain of these hair problems caused by high androgen levels.5
Acne and oily skin, caused by high androgen levels.
Depression or mood swings. Hormonal changes are a known cause of emotional symptoms.
Living with PCOS symptoms can affect your sense of well-being, sexual satisfaction, and overall quality of life. This too can lead to depression
Gradual symptoms
PCOS symptoms that may develop gradually include:
Weight gain or upper body obesity (more around the abdomen than the hips). This is linked to high androgen levels.5
Male-pattern baldness or thinning hair (alopecia). This is linked to high androgen levels.
Repeat miscarriages. The cause for this is not known. These miscarriages may be linked to high insulin levels, delayed ovulation, or other problems such as the quality of the egg or how the egg attaches to the uterus.
Inability to become pregnant (infertility). This is because the ovaries are not releasing an egg (not ovulating).
Symptoms of too much insulin (hyperinsulinemia) and insulin resistance, which can include upper body weight gain and skin changes, such as skin tags or dark, velvety skin patches under the arm, on the neck, or in the groin and genital area.
Breathing problems while sleeping (obstructive sleep apnea). This is linked to both obesity and insulin resistance.3
Pain in the lower abdomen and pelvis (chronic pelvic pain).
I also have an overactive pancreas, which in return is producing too much insulin which then triggers the PCOS in my ovaries to deliver to much Testosterone and voila my hair falls out! So the treatment to all of this madness goes something like this...A VERY CRAZY DOSAGE OF GLUCOPHAGE...TWO THOUSAND milligrams a day to be exact. Lets just say so far I am not a happy camper. The medicine tears your GI Tract apart, as if I didn't already have "Tracy gut syndrome" until your body starts using it. This can be anywhere from 2-6 weeks. RAWR!
So here's the breakdown: PCOS, Too much testosterone,overactive pancreas, and a lot of meds. Google anything you don't understand! and...remember I am ONLY 28! MUAH
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Continued From Previous Post
Years ago I diagnosed myself with reverse anorexia. What is that? That is where in the image from 2008 I felt skinnier than the image in 2010. WOW, I know right, I totally wasn't but ya see I have this amazing group of friends, a phenomenal husband who cant and wont keep his hands off me and I am mostly always happy. So why wouldn't I feel good, pretty,sexy inside? It wasn't until people took pictures and I saw them (gasp) that I was like Holy Shit Batman!!!! Then time would pass and I would be fine again, fat but fine,content,not worried. The Lies We Tell Ourself
Yep, we all lie to ourselves! I am prime example of the best "lying to self" person of all. Whether you are old/young, fat/skinny, you are your worst critic. Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
Iowa Family Time
It was hard for me not seeing my great uncle Ed this time. However, I felt he was always around the corner joking with someone just like old times. I can still hear and see his ornery smirk. He was my moms favorite uncle and by far my favorite great uncle. I just am certain he and my grandpa Atcheson were up in heaven being incredibly rotten. I told my husband I wished he could have met them both. He definitely missed out :)
So the drive to Des Moines wasn't too bad. Dalton has to pee every mile so we made like 3 stops on the way there however, on the way back Russ taught him to pee on his truck tire on the side of the road. Yay for boys right?
So (stay on track Tracy, geeeezzz) we arrive at my Great Aunt Donna and Great Uncle Ricks house. Standing in the driveway was a man in a purple shirt. I knew I had met him but neither of us knew each others name. :) He says "you have to tell me who you belong too." I said " I am Debbie and Steve's daughter" it was my great uncle Kenny, ONE of my grandpas brothers. I knew many faces but some were totally "who are you and who do you belong too?" LOL
One of my second cousins hadn't been around the family since 1974 and we all knew I wasn't even part of life's plan yet. :) His name is Kenny Bill....purple shirt in the driveway's son, follow?. He ended up being the talk of the reunion breakfast the next day. He lives in Maine and let's just say he may have went home a little damaged. We believe he was pretty sheltered prior to this reunion. LOL! Poor fella. However I believe he is also counting down until the next one. I know we all kind of are.
Dalton biked and ran his little legs off at the BBQ. We ate, drank (I drank soda) and laughed! It was muggy but the sun was not scorching us by any means. The lawn chairs eventually segregated into two circles of ONLY women and ONLY men...except for my father who sat with the women, go figure right?! :)
Russ and I headed to Target for a swimsuit....I got a swimming suit ...but bottom line I was looking for a Starbucks. :) Thank goodness they had one and I totally got one. While at Target Dalton's leg aches were setting in and we knew that the sanity level for Russ and I was running low. We headed back to Rick and Donna's for a bit. We saw that everyone was winding down and were gonna head to the hotel for some pool time. Bubba was so excited...which made me so happy. If you recall last summer the kid despised the water. He still doesn't care for splashing, but he was jumping off the side into Russ's arms and even told Russ to let him go....he of course went under water but came up smiling. Yay!
We all dried off and headed up to our rooms. Only to meet up at the hotel bar in a bit. I got Bubba all snuggled in his jammies and he jumped into his bed. The beds were AWESOME. We turned on Disney TV and within minutes Dalton was out. Luckily they booked our room literally right around the corner from the bar. So Russ and I were able to join the family, even though the bed was real tempting. I knew our time together was limited, so we made the best of every minute. Our family packed every seat in the bar, they of course were closed because it's 10:30pm now so without second though our family brought in beer and crown and even ordered pizza. YUM! There was laughter until 1am. Not for us though Russ and I hit the hay about midnight.
We woke about 730 Sunday morning and joined the hotel crew(family that stayed there) in the kitchen area for a fabulous continental. It was no Holiday Inn people. This hotel was so cool. :) Made for a great vacay! We had many more laughs at breakfast as well. It really is a very unique bunch of people. I love them all.
On another great note I learned this weekend that I have many new vacation spots. I have family in Maine(Russ and I's dream place) , Iowa (all over, farms and non-farms), and Huntington Beach, CA. (Mark and Brad please book us a weekend or hell how about a week stay) :)
I am sure I have forgot something regarding this trip and please be patient there will be pictures soon. I think I took 50.
Good times for sure! Until next trip. MUAH!
Friday, June 18, 2010
Smiles All Around
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
June 8th= National Best Friends Day
So in honor of BFF day I say THANK YOU! Thank you, to my friends who have never walked out. Even when I turned all crazy and overbearing at times. Thanks to those who live way out of range, I still know I can call and run to you with any situation. Do something special today. Even if its a simple...I Love You!
“Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints on your heart.” – Eleanor Roosevelt
Monday, June 7, 2010
Boys will be Boys...
“A little boy is the only thing God can use to make a man.”
Author: Roberta I. Teague
I scrub the wall of fingerprints,
Pick up the mounds of clothes.
I sweep the dirt that shoes track in-
Wish I could use a hose!
Meals are served from dawn to dark,
Dirty dishes crowd the sink.
Just when they’re washed and put away-
Everyone wants a drink!
The washer pulls the dirty grime
From pants worn thin and patched.
They look so very neat and clean-
Yuck, look what the pockets hatched!
Broken bones and bloody knees,
I should have been a nurse.
I take it all in shaky stride-
Just grateful it’s not worse!
Screams and shouts and arguments
Test the keeping of my cool.
They left the neighbor’s faucet on-
See their new front yard pool!
A soothing bath is ecstasy,
A reward at the end of my rope.
Raising boys isn’t really bad-
But first I must wash the soap!
A rose can say I Love You,
Orchids can enthrall;
But a weed bouquet in a chubby fist,
Oh my, that says it all!
The Random Act of Being 3
I also caught him yesterday in his room rocking out, his hips movin and groovin and his arms swinging and I asked him what he was doing..he replied "Rockin my dance moves" He is so darn goofy! Oh and he macks on little and older girls. He actually wooed one lookin like scuba steve, in his spiderman swim trunks and a non-matching green and yellow striped shirt. It must be the eyes. LOLSaturday, June 5, 2010
Living Through Others
Friday, June 4, 2010
Happy 33rd Birthday Baby

- He came into my world approximately 2555 days ago
- He has been my best friend since the night we met
- He is so predictable
- He is so unpredictable :)
- He loves me on my worst days
- He should have gone pro in baseball
- He loves his boys
- He is an avid trader when it comes to lawnmowers
- He has at least one obsession a month
- He is a professional nap taker ;)
- He can't keep his hands off of me...Ugh ;)
- He is a Mamas boy
- He is a Texan
- He is a hard, dedicated employee
- He loves Walmart and Walmart loves him
- He "donated" enough money back in the day to renovate the Argosy Casino (LMAO)
- He has always wanted a doberman like his sisters
- He is a country boy at heart
- He is a materialized city boy (meaning been in the city too long)
- He has an amazing voice (from Garth Brooks to Michael Jackson songs)
- He shaves his head every year just to prove to himself it WILL grow back. (lets just say we are still hoping for growth this time around)
- He worries about me, when I might be sick
- He writes love notes...be jealous, it's OK ;)
- He won't give up Dr. Pepper no matter how many times he says he will
- He doesn't handle poop or vomit well at all :)
- When he cleans his ears with a Q-tip...he gags! Does anyone else see something wrong with that? Uggghhh stop! The ear canal is clean..you have now reached your tonsils! LMAO
- He is quite comical when it comes to ball uniforms and matching EVERYTHING all the way down to a monogrammed sweat towel
- He treasures me..I just know it
- He is the Ultimate Cowboys Fan
- He has had like 5 BLUE vehicles...not kidding
- His favorite movies are Bad Boys, Rad, Six Pack and so on....
- He would never walk away.....again
- He is mine, my best friend, my husband
Happy 33rd Birthday Baby!!!
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Tribute to Four Years of Marriage
So----in honor of my FOUR year anniversary tomorrow I will state FOUR things I have NOT yet said during our worst times nor do I ever plan on saying.
- The sex...it just isn't good anymore
- Please don't touch me
- I hate you
- I want a divorce (I told him someone was going out this marriage as a widow, and well I got people that can hide a body, I'm just sayin :)
Now I will state the FOUR things I DO say on a daily basis to Russ.
- I love you to the moon (always the 1st thing in the morning)
- Honey, you are retarded (trust me this is daily)
- Please (this can be used when rolling your eyes, laughing, asking a question or begging for booty--Ha! Like I gotta say please for that! LOL)
- (kiss,kiss,kiss) I love you and Goodnight
FOUR things I suggest couples do.
- Keep a daily journal, both of you can write in it. It can range from "Honey don't forget to take out the trash?" or "I love you have a great day" or "I'm sorry about last nights argument, I should have let it go!" MEN are better readers than listeners when it comes to their wives. Its huge for communication and really great when kids are always in the way of romance
- Date Nights
- Passion-somehow keep the fire lit. It doesn't have to be heavy make out or sex sessions, but getting that book or CD they randomly spoke of...bringing home a Sonic drink because you "thought" they may want one.
- Always say "I LOVE YOU" it's only overused when you don't mean it or don't feel it anymore.
So yes, tomorrow I celebrate marrying my best friend. He was and is still my night in shinning armor and indeed did rescue me from a tower.
To the moon Russ...to the moon :)












