He has a flaw!!!

I know EVERYONE has a flaw, but Dalton's cracks me up. This is his foot, these are his toes. The middle toe on EACH foot is tucked way behind the others. You cant even try to correct or align them and it either pops right back or he whimpers...Its hilarious and cute but does this prevent a football cleat from every being comfortable??? Does this make his jump shot not so jump like? Will he ever wear sandals in front of a girl? Poor bubby, its too cute though.

Saturday didn't turn out too bad

What I woke up to this morning, now if you know Kansas weatherman at all, then you know they stroll into work everyday and play the guessing game. Sometimes the predict the weather right and well others or most times it is totally wrong. Last night I was bored and me being Mrs Spontaneous decided with this supposed weather coming or not coming..I should go get some groceries GLAD I DID! Holy cow even my Starbucks run was delayed a couple hours this morning. Folgers had to do the job until my hubby put on his A game for a coffee run. By the way Thank you Husband! This is a pic of bubby enjoying the Kripsy Kreme donuts that I bought last night at the store. Too cute when he calls them "donts" he ate 3 and a banana...Holy cow!!!

Austin and Bubba enjoying the dollar bin foam swords from Target!!! Best gift ever!

The end to my kind of boring, lazy yet cozy day. We ALL took naps this afternoon, I did some laundry ,watched Dora 99.5 times, drank coffee.....but the best part was getting to see Des again. I cant get enough of good times with her. We sat on my living room floor like slumber party style and ate chips and salsa and talked, not about anyone else but us and our lives and it was AWESOME! I have been focusing really hard on trying to be a positive talker and giving everybody back a chance to be civil with me and so far total complete success. Life is to short. My husband had dinner with his girlfriend Phyliss (Phillip) and they are still out on their date! Thank goodness for boyfriend time he was getting a little buggy I think. He goes to hit balls with the guys tomm. Softball season is right around the corner and I cant wait. Good family times ahead!!!

Ok well goodnight. Love all.

What I Do Behind The Scenes

So after a busy Friday of go here and do this...Russ and I decided to have a family night which consisted of dinner at IHOP, Russ working on a speaker box, Dalton proving he is 2 years old(xoxo, I love you bubby), Austin watching 55 seasons of Sponge Bob and I indulging into my new book Still Alice, if you read at all this book is a must, not as great as Twilight as far as reading material but its a good one. In the pictures posted you will see a picture of my hair, in all honesty its way blonder than that but the picture does goofy red stuff to it. Then I took a picture of my desk because obviously all I do all day is #1 Blog, #2 Eat, and #3 Drink.......I have my old morning Starbucks cup...or was that this afternoons?? My diet coke which I am consuming right now, my glasses, my new book, TUMS, and some awesome new trail mix I just bought at the store....I should have so been in bed hours ago but we are supposed to be getting a snow storm so I headed up to the grocery store for a few survival items like stuff to make ham and bean soup with cornbread!!! YUMMY! Juice, milk, Easter cookies, donuts for the boys in the morning....Man If I wasn't currently on my monthly cycle I would start to wonder about my sweet cravings!!! The last picture was taken this week after work one night. Bubba loves playing with Daddy's old cell phone and daddy plays along...too cute!!! So to wrap up my Friday...it was kind of boring, I did clean house only to see it a mess again tonight and it is driving me incredibly over the edge. Honestly......I think I have a really bad case of PMS this month so I will close this post tonight before it gets ugly!!!

So for all the peepers/creepers

So talking to my aunt and a friend I decided I shouldn't be posting my almost naked photos on here strictly because there are some WEIRDOS out there and I am sure there is some way to track my IP address on my computer and then god forbid I have people looking in my windows to stare at my bodacious body!!! LMAO! Anyhow, if you saw them then Fabulous if not then I apologize for you missed out on some Big and Beautiful greatness...but the pictures should be private! I was just so excited for the way they turned out, being insecure and all, that I went happy posting and you better be glad I stopped when I did...Good Lord!

You know ME!

I can't be really serious to save my life. Being a bigger girl I have always been better know for my personality vs my looks, so when snapping these pictures and haveing to try and be serious, you know I was cracking myself and Lady D up. She caught one of the moments where I was just being ME and I must admit it turned out pretty darn CUTE!

Do The Humpty Hump

It was just one of those Wednesday's...nothing but good ALL day long....lots of laughs at others expense, great weather and lots of food and even a touch of liquor!!! Yeah, I had A drink. I got out of work early, rolled those windows on my car down put in my Rhianna CD and flew to Starbucks then all the way to Bonner Springs to get my hair done by Jasmin(the best)...I'm kind of a blondie now...its really pretty. My husband even commented nicely...WOW! I picked up bubby from daycare so Russ could sleep, I played ball with bubby until we were both sweating and my head hurt from laughing, then after getting all cozy in my sweats, tshirt and NO BRA! My sister called to question my appearance at girls night. OOOoopps! So I threw the hooters in a holder and headed to Johnny's for a nice cold glass of ice water....Really!!!! Just water! The liquor I mentioned earlier was with Julisa over lunch I had a small vodka/cranberry! Just a taste was good for me! Tomm. I am practically dressing in comfy attire again. Its gonna be a slow day considering DOC is in Chicago for the mid winter meeting that I WILL ATTEND one day!

TATA 4 NOW!

Catch Up Over Coffee

Coffee dates with Ms.Des are always so awesome and fun. We laugh at stupidity and sometimes cry at stupidity. Des is one of those friends that just keeps coming back and I embrace her every time. Our worlds sometimes collide but I know she is ALWAYS there. Never judging! Always positive. I just love her and what we have! We email or text now and again but lately life is crazy on both sides so we actually pencil each other in about once or twice a month and dare we cancel...We sat at Starbucks tonight with our chairs scooted as close together as could be, not minding the people around us at all, we laughed and cursed and talked and talked and talked. I think we covered a little of everything...Ooopps I freakin forgot the major thing I was hoping to talk about Damnit!!!! I will call her later. She looks so good. She has lost 90 lbs....what a inspiration..Ugh I could go on and on. To sum it up. Des I love you and I look forward to many more coffee dates and if you ever live closer more visiting is a must!

Just having a AWE moment!

I have to admit I am flattered by all of the comments on my pictures. I really dont see myself in the mirror as someone beautiful, it really is all in my head and mostly my attitude! I say I am pretty therefore I am. There are so many more pictures to come but like I have said before only so many can be posted on this blog!
Thank you for the uplifting comments.

Capturing My Personality

I like this one A LOT because I look soft and tender...as I am! Im a wear your heart on your sleeve kind of girl.....This is me...

Bragging Rights

I have to brag majorly here...Lady D Pix is by far the BEST photography place to take your kids, your family or just to do sexy shots for your hubby. Ashley is part of my family and she is amazing! This is Baby Sissy or Lacey......I am gettign this picture printed for as large as I can. There are way to many good ones to choose from. She is just amazing at her art!

For the love

For the love of my husband and his team The Dallas Cowboys!!!

Monday, Monday, Monday

It was a GREAT day, full of laughter at the work place, when is there not? We missed Val but will see her hopefully Wednesday. All went well today and she seems fabulous! Like she didn't skip a beat. I am anxious to see a running photo or video though Val I am holding you to it. Put on those new shoes!!!

Switching topic: Man everyone has this bug that's flying around, my friends, my boss, my child, my dad had it, Russ has a recurring sinus infection which causes him to SNORE! Sometimes I think of pillows over his face...just for a second then the zanax kicks in for me and I am out. Switching topic: I tend to be becoming a night owl! Last night bed time 10:30pm and I was up at 5am. Is there something wrong with that? Not at all! I will say its because its the only alone time I ever get!!!! I love it.

I found things

I found that working for Dr Schulz, the best dentist I might add and not because I need a raise but because I truly for once believe he loves what he does and he is awesome at it... he is a great teacher,friend, boss etc....OK getting off track.

I have found that working for him I discovered two of the neatest, most unique , total opposite girls ever and I call them friends, sisters, homies etc. We laugh with each other until our stomachs hurt and cry with each other to. We poke fun at each other and sometimes gets a little snippy...WE ARE WOMEN!

I thought we were just co-workers for a short while but I have learned and love a little more of Valerie and Julisa everyday! They are smart, wise, neurotic, OCD, off their rockers (which means we are all on the floor) and I love them to pieces for all of theirs or our faults. Those girls and Doc himself complete me. Doc is a whole other chapter. What a man he is. Some lady, (I do believe she is out there)...is going to be so LUCKY!

I just wanted to blog about them, mostly the girls because yes I have worked at other offices and had close friends but not ones you leave on Thursday or Friday and then talk to on the weekend as well.

I love you Val and Julisa and I am thankful for you both!

Sunday Certains

Sunday certainty....

I'm certain I have a clean car, with a cute smelly flip flop (spring scented) hanging in the rear view mirror...its has rhinestones on it. Thank you Walgreen's!

I'm certain my friend Ally has a birthday coming up this week....Happy Bday girl...you know I love you mostest!

I'm certain Bubba is over this sickness thingy even though he isn't eating, he played a mad game of basketball with daddy tonight.

I'm certain bubba hates seeing brother go home on Sunday's and that will get worse.

I'm certain I need a lot more rights in my life than wrongs.

I'm certain I cleaned house today, did laundry including Russ's while he was at Ashy's bday party!! :(

I'm certain I ran into my ex boyfriends mom and dad last night and it was just as cool as always!!! :)

I'm certain I have text Valerie more this weekend than ever before and she is doing "OK"

I'm also last but not least CERTAIN that I am NOT tired and I AM going to curl my hair tonight for tomm.

Happy Monday(not sunday) Eve Everyone! (a correction for my sister)

Our Retriever

My little ill man

My man.....being all POOPY to say the least. This is after the bath and the laundry is going...Russ is at the store stocking up on Pedialyte, bread, applesauce, diet cherry coke for mommy and laundry detergent, might as well wash some clothes in m down time. At least Russ will be able to take Austin to Ashlyns birthday party which I am totally bumbed I am gonna miss, I really wanted to go...

Here is bubby shirtless of course and in his 3rd pair of pants for the morning....

He wanted gel in his hair of course so he could look good you know in case any LADIES come by. LOL!

Last night I got a good dose of one on one Amberly time. Usually its our families together but Jeff had something he was doing and we only had 2 of her kids and our boys so to bed the little ones went and Russ stayed with Ashy and Austin while Amberly and I went to Walmart which was a great time. We also hung out on my bed just talking away like we were in high school. Good times!

Hope everyones day turns out good, in all reality I love these times when little man is sick he just cuddles and watched Dora and Blues clues all day.....not to mention GREAT naps....

take care~

WHERE HAVE I BEEN????

I have seem to have stepped out of Blogworld for a few days which I know is odd for this EVERYday poster. I have I guess maybe sort of been a little busy. Not busy with things or events that cause me not want to write about but I guess maybe activities that are tiring so I come home and sleep. Sleep? Ha! I laugh at sleep. Why you ask? Simple...its laughs at me....point is I GET NO SLEEP! I have some pics here that are random...Bubby in his car seat on the way to daycare I am sure its like 630am, I great snapshot of Julisa because TYPICALLY the camera hates her...A pic of me and Julisa.....in a moving car, not a good idea! A picture of me and Nichole out to dinner at Chili's for a simple but fun girls night.

A list of things I have been busy with or I think you ought to know.

1. I won and received my Gladware giveaway from MOMFILES.

2. Girls night on Wed at chili's.

3. Sis came in from Cottonwood Falls, KS and had a thorough dental visit, we had lunch and she was gone by 5pm.

4. I hung out with my sister Ashley and the little girls on Friday, cleaned house then babysat her girls so she could go to a scrapbook retreat!

5. I heard devastating news from and about my friend Val about how life can change in an instant.

6. We ate lunch at Ryan's family steakhouse with the Bards and they paid...by surprise as a gift....Thank yous to them again.

7. We go to Pump it Up tomm for a birthday party!

8.I took sexy lingerie pictures for my husband yesterday by Lady D Pix. She is awesome, you should check out her galleries, just a rookie but has the total art of it.

9. My son started another 102 fever and we have had it for almost 3 days now.

10.....I need my fiftyth glass of STARBUCKS!

So all in all like I said not real busy but......busy! I did however take a nap today!!! t was alright, not much of a napper anymore.

PS: To Ashley Reynolds....my hair is STILL curly and its 3:53pm on Saturday!

I am not the only one

I am not the only one who recalls funny things and laughs out loud! This is a note I got from a friend that started a new job but obviously I used to work with her. Oh the impressions I leave on others...



Unfortunately Tracy, I haven't located anyone at this job that holds a candle to your silly ass...I sure miss those days you used to put on a show on the other side of the teller wall...you looked like you were flying like superman? LMAO!

101 Ways

I bought a little box of cards at a christian book store and its called "101 Ways to STOP worrying and START living"

So I pulled out a card today and it says
It's not what happens that matters, but how you take it

Then on the back of the card it says
Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired, and success achieved.

Couldn't have fit my day any better.

Simply Stated!

I just have to share with you all that I have always had good hygiene but these past couple days I have had phenomenal hygiene. The Sephora (I say that word with pride because it sounds like I am rich to have owned a product from there) body wash Ashley got me is AMAZING! I have showered and lathered in the last couple days more than I have in my life! I am buying this as BDay gifts for everyone in the future!

On another note. I have heard personally that the Lord did something great once again this weekend. He is using his strength in a big way, either through my blog or my heart I helped someone. I love them and hope they know that.

Simple facts of the day:

*Bubby and I ate the rest of the french silk pie today, I guess it was just for us to eat for breakfasts.
*I am wearing a new blue shirt and it makes my eyes pretty
*I received a ton of pictures from my Aunt Jilly Bean and Uncle Kev this weekend and got to read letters from my second cousin Michael Dalton that died in Vietnam 1968, very cool to me..
*It's my mothers actual 55th Birthday today
*My dad developed the worst stomach flu at 4am today and we hung out all last night with him....God help us!
*I'm smiling and listening to Jazz on Itunes!!

Have a great day!

Master Artist

I have to share with you all this video. It's hilarious like the bathtub one. So here we are sitting at a restaurant eating breakfast when bubba decides to unleash his art skills in front of the family. We as parents have kept this behind closed doors, but I think he might be the next big thing....or he would like to think so. NOTICE: The little thing he is drawing on is Mommy's NEW notebook....Oh well it made a really cool sound when writing on it...

Pampa Time

I couldn't help but fall in love with this picture once I took it. I happen to be leaving First Watch after my Moms Bday breakfast and captured my dad with Jojo and Bubba in each hand. I love it and they love him!

PS

My husband insist I blog that the FRENCH SILK PIE stayed in the fridge ALL night long...HA! Guess after 5 years I am still just a tease! It satisfied me just to think of the idea, paste the note etc and well thats the difference between Men and Women!
A plus to this whole ordeal was that Russ had some french silk pie for breakfast on a plate with a fork. Love you honey. Remember I make your world go round!!

Sunday To Do List

Go to breakfast at First Watch for my mommy's birthday
Go shop for Owen a Baptism gift for his Baptism
Coffee with Amy at some point
Owens Baptism at some point
Bathe Bubba and myself
Laundry
See my mom and dad a little more while they are here.

OK so it's not much but darn it seems like it. I just feel like go go go lately and I am a sit sit sit person....hence my butt!

Take care everyone have a splendid day!

Randoms..Maybe Rated R

So these are just some funny goof off pics from the rest of our VDay. We had an amazing dinner with the Bard family. The guys cooked Woo Hoo but they DONT do dishes! If you know my personality or my marriage than my note in the fridge on the french silk pie is absolutely hilarious!!! Mind you it's 10:10pm and it's still in the fridge because we are more worried about winning the powerball than playing with pie. Hence the reason Russ is glued to the 10pm news.

Russ and I Valentines Night 2009....this picture says "GO BACK TO THE GYM"

This is Coltyn enjoying the pink/red frosted cupcakes I brought over. Too cute

The picture of Russ, well that's MY stud. I love him with all my heart! I bought him this 5.00 t-shirt today at Old Navy...Why??? You ask! Duh, because it says Dallas, TX on it.

All in all a great day full of family, friend and loved ones. Tomm. we go out to eat at first Watch for my moms BDay! Yummy!

Pretty Pointelin Princess's

Jordyn 2 1/2 and Lacey is 5 months....

VDay Pics

My card from Russ. His writing below states " Thanks for taking care of me and my boys. You are the perfect wife and mother. I LOVE you. Hope you have a great day."

That made everything in my world right......

These are some pictures with my TRUE LOVER BOY! A kiss for Mommy and a Big 2 year old smile......I could just eat him up, except for the fact that he is SICK....what's new??? Runny nose, sleepng all day etc.

This is Jordyn Brooke. Anyone want to be her Valentine????

It's Valentines Day

I have to apologize for my blog last night I was just feeling left out. I have to say it is the "little" things that make me happy. My hubby got up early this morning lets say 4:30am (but he doesn't think I know that, I was pretend sleeping) He then came home with a Beautiful not left over card, chocolate and a stuffed animal which I get every year so it's become tradition and actually bubba sleeps with last years...Oh and the best part of it all besides the card that I love, he brought me my signature Starbucks drink. Sad to say he just had to tell Janeene the Barista it was Tracy's drink he needed and she knew right away.

Bad part is I haven't even filled out his card yet. I will though right now...then I will post some pics later of bubby in his VDay shirt and my card because I LOVE IT!

It's Hard

It's hard to sit back and read all these blogs about all these great material things people are getting from their loved ones for Valentines Day. ( I now know why Val celebrates on another day in the year) It's hard, really hard not to be jealous. It's not like Russ has ever been a big present kind of guy as much as he is affectionate. I know this but for some reason this year when everyone is supposed to be having it rough I am seeing it differently. I say I am not materialistic but to get something above and beyond for once would be awesome. Maybe my day will come. I do treat myself with walmart clothes and nail polish and Starbucks throughout the entire year, maybe that's why! I know in my heart I paid it forward though and tomorrow two people will have huge smiles on their faces and warm hearts. Happy Pre-V Day

A Favorite Friday....

It's been a great day so far. I got to mildly sleep in this morning than got bubby up, dressed and head out out the door to get treats for Miss Gabby's Daycare. After the Wally World trip I dropped bubba off. Then headed to Starbucks for my liquid crack then to Ashley's. Then to a great new place called(click on debbie howards gym) Debbie Howard's Gym where you pay 5.00 and let your child run like the wind. FABU! Then to the mall, grab a second cup of coffee and start shopping for the rest of my moms Bday presents since her big day is Mon the 16th. I grabbed bubba a VDay shirt and a new pair of shoes and also got a some awesome body wash called "Pink Frosted, Layer Cake" by Sephora from my sister for "Happy Friday the 13th"...LOL!(Needless to say it smells phenomenal) I have to say Ashley's gift was really SWEET but nothing as SWEET as my handmade valentine from Bubby! I just melted! Man, I love presents with little thought. Heck I love presents all the time but big extravagant ones usually embarrass me....don't ask! Now my husband is home and sleeping....uuuggghhh! Annoying! I hate his work shift with a passion...but you gotta do what works for the family right? That he does! It seems as though everyone is celebrating VDay and little early this year because if you read the blogs I follow everyone has already received their presents. All I ask is a card and Russ says he will get one tomm, and I said they will be all picked over and he said, "then you will get a picked over one!" Ornery freakin shit!!! As he sleeps I would like to sit on his head but fear my big booty will kill him instantly...maybe a little graphic but it was a adamant thought! However no aggression here just a wicked smile upon my face! Happy Friday y'all

It's My Friday

My hubby stayed home today and all I want to do is hurry up and get out here so I can go see him. He had a horrible migraine last night and was still awake at 10:30pm last night moaning and groaning. Come to think of it as I laid there and listened I developed a headache myself. Eventually I fell asleep but not before asking him for a huge favor. I asked him to take bubba to daycare for me. Ahhh! It was the best just getting up and getting myself ready, and sneaking out the door in total silence. Have a Great Day everyone!

Woman vs Man

So I text my husband this morning and with all my heart I say " What are we doing for Valentines Day?"

Only I am the stupid one because I thought he would say something like..."I have a plan up my sleeve" or "you just wait honey I got it all figured out"

Nope~~~Come on we know Russ better than that right..

His response to what we are doing this VDay was....."Eachother"

Now wipe the shitty grin off your face because it wasnt at all what I was hoping for!

Happy Hump Day..

So for all of my peeps trying to keep up with my chaos, I have started another blog and the link is to the right of my page. http://www.thewritedreams.blogspot.com/

It a place for me to keep all my trial runs seperate from my 1st blog, my personal life! Hope you enjoy. Have a great day! Check out Sheliza's blog momfiles. Vent Day Wed. is hilarious!!! I think he mentioned "junky drawer" just for me wink wink ;)

It's raining outside and we all know that I LOVE IT and then we all know that Candie thinks its smells like worms...which if you sniff it truly does! Lucky Birds!!!!!

Tuesday!

Who is my reader from Tennessee? I have noticed you read a lot and was just curious. Hope your day is great.

My day is so far has been me attempting to tell people I am not cookoo...and that I am just chasing a dream. Thats all. I have my coffee and my treat and I am dressed pretty with great hair and just because of that my day will be PHENOMINAL. Its only Tuesday and I am this happy...something wrong? I dont think so!

Because of Amy

Update: 2:45pm Monday: I actually wrote a letter to the KC Star and sent it to 5 people. You never know unless you try right? Some say crazy, some say creative and courageous! Just put yourself out there what can they do say no?! Well then OK!! But what if???

I just recently told my mom that several people have told me that they love reading my blog. So I try to post everyday....maybe my Daily Dose is my purpose...Good one Amy! This blog is triggered by this message from Mrs. Amy on my Facebook!

"Hey girl. Just wanted to say hey. I hadn't seen a blog post from you this morning and I was wondering where the daily dose of Tracy was! Ha! How's your little man doing?"

Man if I don't keep up on this thing people think I am done...what if I wrote in a magazine column once a week how horribly great would that magazine sell???? IDEA maybe?

My day is great. Just arguing with the IRS and Bankruptcy...whats new? Like I told Russ "it always works out for us" so I am not gonna sweat it.

Loves....
I will post new great things as they come on this Monday morning

PS: I LOVE THE RAIN and it's pouring outside!!!!

And So Sunday Came And Went

I woke early and headed of course to get coffee...hello its my oxygen! First thing on my mind is church..going back has been a hard thing for me. I was taught and raised Catholic and I have no regrets other than I don't know anything about the religion. My mom has always said I have the "ME" religion. I know talking religion is like talking politics and you just don't do it but I have to share my experience.

In high school I attended YOUNG LIFE! I loved it!!! Why? Because it was a social event that involved our god! It was laughing hard, crying aloud and hugging friends and total strangers. It was warm and always inviting and people cared about your day and life. That I loved, That I am searching for. I have my home family, I have my work family...I need my God family as well..maybe to fill this void I have.

In the past month he has called to me, reached for me, practically yelled at me to listen to him again and I thought OK!!!! Enough already!!! So I had coffee with Amy and she got me all excited because she has a lot to say about her journey but she is also just like me personality wise, she loves that Youth Group feeling as well.

So back to this morning. I told my sister I would try out this 5pm mass she goes to and so I went with much hestitation...but in the back of my mind I could hear Candie saying "you never follow through"
(this might get harsh)
I was in tears in my car when I left. I immediately called Amy and asked WHY WHY WHY do I feel this way? People sat far apart from eachother and there was no ligh in anyones eyes. It made me sad honestly. I give the band props though it was great! I was hoping to leave happy and more light on my feet and I didn't. I felt instead that I was bored and tired and actually heard nothing of the mass as I did when I was little.

I am a people person, I have NEVER met a stranger, everyone is a friend. I want to embrace people and where better to do it than in Gods home. So I am still searching, nothing like "trying" out churches. But I have to find my home where I hear God and he grabs me!!! Like he has in other ways. I am not quiting I am just beginning my journey.

I had to talk to my mom about this tonight and that was difficult. Sometimes I feel like I tend to lead a different lifestyle, I am a procrastinator, a non-traditionalist, a total opposite of my mom and now my sissy.

But just like a hobby, or a class I desire to take, or a event I participate in, it has to have a good purpose, teacher and mainly I crave the social aspect. I at one point wanted to be a psychologist just because I love hearing and learning about people but instead I see one myself!!! LOL!

This is a journey through finding my FAITH and I know I will find a home to share with God, I just need to research! Ya know Test the water!!!!

"The Lord will either calm your storm . . . or allow it to rage while... He calms" you.

Take Care..Loves!!!!

Bubba

Look at all those teeth. I am just playing around with Picasa photo center but I mentioned he does have pictures with no binky. So here it is inall his glory!

A Beautiful Day By Far...

Just a good ole Saturday night at the Woods. Me, Bubba and that darn binky. As I sit here I think how much he has become attached to that binky, and how much I told myself before I was a mom that I wouldn't give my kiddo a binky. Then I think who gives a shit! Right? I mean as many doctors visits we have been too, as many times he has been stuck with a needle or had a blood pressure cuff squeeze his arm off, its the least he has hung on too. He is happy and I am sane so I really don't care other than it kind of ruins the picture. I have a picture of him and I after he took it out but honestly I didn't look to good in that one. :)

Today was a great day really! I was overwhelmed with good company. First coffee with an old but new friend for sure Amy Mott, second Candie and Bird came by as you saw in an earlier post, then Amberly and Coltyn came over to play, I cleaned house to a T then relaxed. Its 7:10pm and my windows are still open and I can smell BBQ is that crazy or what? I wore flip flops all day and my poor ugly feet need a pedi!

But we alllllllll know life isn't that perfect, so to shut it down I got a letter regarding my bankruptcy that I have to address on Monday because of course lawyers aren't in on Saturdays when you get your mail...sneaky little shits!

But I am not worrying, like Candie says, don't worry until Monday and I just took a DEEEEEEEEP breath and agreed. Of course then I had to tell Russ to breathe. LOL! The boys have been great today although sometimes I wish my 8 year old knew what outdoors was. He says he would rather stay in.....ITS 70 degrees!!!!! What???

Tomorrow I got to church with Mrs Amy. I am gonna try a new one out and see what I think. Amy made me see that I am not crazy today. She is a lot like me in the sense of cussing and being totally off the wall retarded! I am sure we could laugh it out pretty hard together and not to mention I ADORE her husband and always have. Travis (whom I have known since kindergarden) is just one of those NEAT UNIQUE guys! I could be 400lbs and Travis could make me feel good about myself. I guess I just informed you of all of that because well...I am sure I will be speaking of them often since we have reunited!

This is so great I think this might be my longest post and I could just keep going...Bubby is in such a good mood just playing with cars and annoying brother to no end. I have to go now though, gotta get that winning lottery ticket in order for Russ and the kids to have everything they want and me to have no more worries!!!

Visit from the Dearing Girls

To my total surprise Candie and Bird came over today and I felt so special. I got some good visiting time in and tons of lovin on Bird time (notice I capitalize Bird like it's her name) It was quite the treat. She is definitely something beautiful and so content. I swear the Mitchell bloodline is amazing you should see her cousin Hunter. I just ate her up and when she giggles, oh LORD! She will be a year old March and I cant honestly tell you where the time went.

Little Boy Blue

It was 70 degrees here in Kansas yesterday and so we attempted the park but so did 95,000 other kids and ones who didnt care about my little one wanting to have fun on the slide so we left. But not before I caught this awesome picture! He looks so good in blue!

Ink Time

Me and Jewlez getting my tattoo on Friday. i had been wanting another one and have told myself I will ONLY get one on the condition that it means something. If you know me then you know I have a hard time worrying about what others in my life might say or do that hurts, well in my new case I have decided like the KAY jewelers ad that if your heart isn't closed it can NEVER be broken...so you will see a picture and once the swelling goes down you will be able to see that the heart doesn't close at the top...I love it and Julisa said I only made a few faces....

For Everyone!

Click on articale to enlarge! I found it on a friends blog and its so true...we are busy, all the time and tired alot and trying to hang onto every little moment knowing its our last.

Rachel Ray is The Way

So I have been pondering something to buy myself, to treat myself because life has been so Fabulous to me. I have pondered for quite sometime and well this is what I decided on.....Can you believe it? I am so in love with her as my husband is...I mean I do devote a lot of attention to Paula Dean but as far as cookware goes burnt orange cookware couldnt get anywhere.....

go Longhorns right honey???

Just a Letter for ME

Okay so maybe I really brag alot about myself but this is my blog and I will reread it over and over as my children will one day. So I have to copy in emails that I recieve from dear loed friends. This is from my girl Melissa Stone-Morris


"Tracy, So I read your blog and couldn't help but write you about it. First of all I think you are an amazing person and so fun to be around. Why do you think I hung out with you in high school? lol. But on a serious note I understand those serious emotions you are going through. There are answers to your questions. I know that God lives and he love you and wants you and your family to return home to him someday. We have a purpose here on Earth, and it is to gain a physical body to be tested and tried. We are to grow and gain experience, to help others and love others. Our ultimate goal is to live in a way that is pleasing to our father in heaven and to return home to him according to our actions. I know he has a plan for each and every one of us.You are a wonderful person and bring happiness to those who surround you, I think it is great that you have gone back to church. That helps a ton and makes God happy."

Needing the Gym

Good Lord, to the left was 1 year ago January. to the right is a picture from this Jan 2009. not bad eh? If I dont get my butt back to the gym. I will be looking like that girl in the bar!!! Somebody just kick my butt and make me love the gym again. It was such great fun not sure why I quit. Life is just a poor excuse rigth!? LOL!

Full of Emotion

Where do I start? I will try and stick to the point but I may wander. I have often wondered or questioned my purpose here on earth and have thought many times that I am missing out on something. I think I was supposed to be some sort of healer..like working in a hospital or with people with no hope! I think maybe if I had not met my husband I would be in Europe or a 3rd world country teaching kiddos.
Everyone says I have a contagious laugh but what else would be said if I died tomorrow? What impact did I have on others?
So not even 2 weeks ago Russ and I were sitting in the living room talking with the TV off , kids in bed and no other noise. I asked what he thought his purpose was? Trying not be all crazy sounding of course. He said he should have been a pro ball player and show his "crib" on MTV. That's my hubby! I tried to make him be serious but it didn't happen. So I have felt crazy, going back to church sometimes weirds people out. Some may think you have flown the nest, or fallen off the wagon when really you are just trying to get back on.
I think I have been called to the Lord in many ways recently, some through people I would have never have conversed with and they turned out to be amazing people...our paths have just never crossed. Some through gifts of total generosity! I'm just elated by them all. Overwhelmed is another word!
So now I have decided I must listen, pray and follow to find out my purpose. What are his intentions for me? Should I write to others, speak to others, care for others in need? I try to be the sunlight on faces and the humor in the crowds but I am not always so happy. I had some crumbling moments recently as you read about in my blog! But like I said Life is too short. Who knows if I will see tomorrow...and you thank god if you do right? I don't want to leave this place behind angry or regretful. So I smile through the tears and frustration. I hold friends and loved ones really close! I say the Our Father every night as I have for the past 6 years.
Lord I am on a mission though. I am a see it to believe it person and so you will struggle with me! I am a procrastinator so good luck keeping me motivated! I will not hold my breath for I know change will be a long road!

10:21 Jesus looked at him and loved him. "One thing you lack," he said. "Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me."

Please try not to dwell on the grocery bill, or the gas and electric bill because that man upstairs is LOADED! He will take care of everything.

Trying

I am sitting here trying to think of something to write and I am blank....What? Blank? You mean no smartass comments or hilarious way of looking at things this morning? Nope, I am blank. My heart is really warm and really heavy and for that I am thankful. I have nothing more to say other than I have a 2 year old talking in the background and all he wants me to do is "hugga" him, which means hold him. So that I will tend to!!
Have a Great HUMP Day

Just Because.....Thanks Mom!

In two decades I've lost a total of 789 pounds. I should be hanging from a charm bracelet. Erma Bombeck

In Addition To....

In addition to my previous blog...I had a really good talk with my mom tonight. She is quite the woman you all know! She really has my brain going....... Now, how do I sleep? I should be a vampire, no joke! Ok..... maybe a little joke!
I really think I am figuring life out, but I am not jumping to any kind of conclusion. Going back to church is number 1 right now. I will let higher powers figure out the rest....until then on another note..I got glasses tonight. Yes!!! I am not blind anymore! Scary part is I have been driving others around for how long?? No wonder I have such bad direction skills. I have never seen a street sign until I am passing it. Welll they are supercute and my hubby helped me pick them out.
Tomm. goal. GYM!!!! Tracy plus Cool Glasses equals HOT GYM GIRL!
Night ya'll
Hope your Monday was a slow and tiring as mine.

Crazy but True

I have a facebook account and I recieved a message today from a friend I knew in highschool named Cammi. She was always so sweet. At this point I have so many frustrations and need so many answers yet, they arent there for me to view. I have recently considered going back to church because I think maybe thats whats wrong. I KNOW I have a purpose yet again I have no clue. I have thought heavily about writing a book, I want to change something or someone. Call me crazy, maybe I am. Below you will see what Cammi sent me and to be honest I cried!

Hia Tracy!How are you doing?I hope all is well with you! You have been heavy on my heart! For a while, I have been praying for you! I don't know why I am to tell you this now- but I know that God loves you very much! And has a plan for your life. He will wait for you. He has been putting people in your path that are praying for you, you have so much good in you to give t others, He wants to bless you in a big way. Know that His protection is around you and His people are there for you no matter the need...I pray all the best for YOU and your family!Blessings!Cammi

A/C in the Winter

No we are not CRAZY! So here it is Sunday night, I have bathed bubba, we have eaten dinner and he is in bed! I am sitting at the computer and a huge draft is blowing cold air at me. I look at the window and feel for a draft knowing its NOT that cold outside!

Memory visual flashback ~~~dalton standing on one of his toys playing with the thermostat!

So I go to check the other vents and sure as shit they are blowing ice cold. I tell Russ thinking holy crap did I pay the gas bill. Then......the flashback again.

Holy Schmoly he flipped it to a/c while he was playing so our house was chillin until it reached 68...SERIOUSLY!!!!

Grrrr. 2 year olds~ guess it was better than playing with a socket, or climbing into the oven.