Hold On Tighter....

Man these past couple weeks have been rough..ok months have been rough. I watch relationships crumble or struggle and I see and experience the pain in these hearts and the fight in their minds. Losing a relationship hurts to the bones I get that, know that feeling all to well. If you have never experienced it please do share cause I don't believe you.

I am a good friend to my friends or so I think. Therefore I listen and try to fix and heal. All along healing myself in the process. Helping myself to appreciate what I have even more.

I thank Russ all the time for loving me, holding me, marrying me etc. Is that normal? Should I have to thank him for just being there? Yes, it must work because 6 years later here we are.
Do I think could this ever end? Yes! Do I think I am guaranteed in this marriage? Never! I just hope and pray that each day to come is better than the days before!

I have mentioned before that I came from a very verbal, emotional, and in the end physical abusive relationship. He forever changed or shall I say destroyed my emotions and trust borders. So for Russ to take me as I am....its a God send!

My Song to Russell:

God Blessed The Broken Road, by Rascal Flatts

I set out on a narrow way, many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Yes He did
I think about the years I spent, just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost, and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there, you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
But now I'm just rolling home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you