This past week has been a big let down to me. Yet an eye opener! See if you don't know me then let me tell you now I am a fixer, I hate sadness and people that are alone or upset! I fix, I listen, I give the best advice I can and I hope to somewhere along the way I FIX. I would never say I am selfish, I would never say I hate anyone (not even my ex, to be honest I feel incredibly sorry for the life he chose to lead) I am relatively happy, although everyone has bad days, I think I have a laugh that keeps people laughing, and number one MY heart is way to big for my body (hard to imagine I know!) Because of this person I tend to be I have started problems. (trust me its not the 1st time) When people don't like me its tends to disturb me very much. Insecurities set in big time because well call me conceited but I just don't get it! I understand I am not always gonna have 90 friends, but I would like to! I did a wrong thing and assumed the only reason someone didn't like me was because they had been convinced I was crazy or just dumb. Again MY insecurities. But to me there was no other explanation. So I had a girls night Friday and I confided in a person, which I have done on many occasions and this time it actually backfired(damn alcohol). All hell broke loose. Words got twisted and stories got told and there was no turning it around, I wasn't even gonna try. I apologize for my assumptions big time, but for some reason I still don't feel better, and this person for sure wont hang out now! ;) why? Because I am crazy and dumb!
Lesson 2: I cannot hibernate, I have tried it and I cannot do it. If I am out of commission its because I have the flu and I am not sure I would be a good hibernator then. Last night we had dinner with Jason and Jasmin Harrington, she made burritos and nachos and cinnamon rolls...and we also made a attempted sneak run to Starbucks but the guys caught us. We then as a family watched the most funny comedy I have seen in a long time, the movie I love you MAN! Hysterical! We stayed out late again (11:30pm) The Harrington's crack up because 4am is late to them! It was good to be outside the circle for awhile. I thought for certain Jazz and I would be gossiping all night but not a word, and I loved it! It was just good, relaxed humorous, crazy like entertainment. (Battery, Battery) That was for Jazz! :)
Lesson 3: Going out to Mom and Dads on a rainy Sunday morning is good for the soul and the house :) I scored on some awesome G-Sale items for FREE! Like Rugs, Room divider, bathroom items, pictures etc...Bubba had some good Grandma and Pampa time and that's what its all about right?!
Lesson 4: If your body is tired enough it shall nap! I had a very long 2 hour nap and loved every minute of it!!! I am ready for Monday!
Lesson 5: Keep the friends you have close, shut your mouth when you think you have good advice, cause they 99%of the time don't care, listen to them but they most likely aren't listening to you, care but not too much, hug but not to tight... and never assume! Old written rule ASSUME=makes an ASS out of U and ME! Life changes on a dime, people come and go, insecurities are a burden, and words can kill!
Okay, so in response to keeping a shut mouth... the key is to get to know someone well enough that you know what to say and not to say. Advice is great. You are not a fixer... you are a caring, compassionate person who hates to see people in pain. Those people are called sympathizers. I love your advice, and although I may not always take it... I always listen. Hibernation is for winter... when its too cold to go visit people and you are so frustrated with Christmas shopping and snow shoveling. I completely hibernate then! Finally, don't let someone who drinks and runs their mouth too much discourage you from voicing your opinion. That issue is hers not yours. A friend will shut her mouth and listen, and if she makes the mistake she will apologize and mean it! Love ya Tracy! BATTERY BATTERY!
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